October 31, 2003
You heard them say,
that he would be the one to stay.
Only to find out that in love,
we are easily led astray.
You tell yourself all the time,
about how the next one should be so fine.
Only to find out that in love,
fine is a matter of time.
So, you fall in love.
Over and over again.
Once, thinking you fell out,
only to find yourself deeper in.
You make the often sighs,
cos you found out that sometimes in love,
words don't mean anything.
*Hmm, I haven't been attempting english poems for a long long time. hehe...
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 00:40
October 24, 2003
It's like this. I'm a Mama's girl. No surprise to some of u eh? hee..
But I am. I'm super close to my Mummy. We go market together, we go shopping together, we go pig out together (then share the tummytrim gel), we go on short trips to Haatyai sometimes, we have pre-sleep chats regularly (until she decides that I'm getting more loh-soh than her). I even bring my Mum to the movies once in a blue moon.
So, tonight, she left for Haatyai for a 3 days trip. This time with her own friends, cos I couldn't go, whatwith my course and work. N I really wanted to come home (from work) in time to 'see her off'. But, just as I closed shop, she called to say she's leaving cos the travel van has already came. Still, I took a cab home. But, missed her by that bit.
It's like this. I get 'mothersick' whenever this happens. Either when she goes somewhere for a few days without me or I go on a trip without her.
haha... So, here I am. Blogging my sense of unease cos I didn't get to see my Mummy off. =(
ok dok! Guess there's always the household chores to take my mind off.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 00:11
October 22, 2003
Steven Curtis Chapman - "I will be here"
Tomorrow morning if you wake up
And the sun does not appear
I, I will be here
If in the dark we lose sight of love
Hold my hand and have no fear
'Cause I, I will be here
I will be here
When you feel like being quiet
When you need to speak your mind
I will listen
And I will be here
When the laughter turns to crying
Through the winning, losing and trying
We'll be together
'Cause I will be here
Tomorrow morning if you wake up
And the future is unclear
I, I will be here
As sure as seasons are made for change
Our lifetimes are made for these years
So I, I will be here
I will be here
And you can cry on my shoulder
When the mirror tells us we're older
I will hold you
And I will be here
To watch you grow in beauty
And tell you all the things you mean to me
I will be here
I will be true to the promise I have made
To you and to the One who gave you to me
Just as sure as seasons are made for change
Our lifetimes are made for these years
So I, I will be here
We'll be together
I will be here
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 02:12
October 18, 2003
Today is a Friday. Recent months, my Friday nights are spent outside, at least till 2am and my head will only hit the pillow at around 3am. Not tonight. Chiefly cos my kaki, Wenn, needs to get up super early for work tomorrow. So, she suggested that I'd better come back home (from my evening class) and spend some time on, I quote, 'soul reflection'.
So, I guess that's part of the reason why I'm here, blogging. Not cos I wanna do any soul reflection. But cos I certainly do not know how to go abut doing that. hence, decided that perhaps if I start writing, I'd start thinking and start reflecting. Well, obviously, it's not working. haha
Life's been a whirlwind recently. Those who have been somewhat updated with the happenings (voluntary and involuntary) in my life will know what I mean.
I've this list of people I know and really feel that I ought to make time out for. Either juz to catch up with them, to hang out (mindless kind), or to fulfill some promises earlier made. And the list juz keep extending.
But, it's not like I totally don't have time. Juz that, if I think about it seriously, there is indeed one friend who I've been seeing on a very regular basis, like, almost every weekend. haha. Someone almost like my own boyfriend. Shucks...
hey, wenn, if you're reading this, I think 'we need to talk'. hahahaha..
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 01:05